How can the hero vanquish the monster if nobody knows it is there?

WARNING: horrible stuff

  DARK, UGLY, HORRID  

("colonic irrigation"?)

 

Only if I see can I set myself free

Attitude

The Turd (Pt I)

I am a walking turd  

Repugnance engraved on my face

I scowl at that world absurd

All of it condemned, "A disgrace!"

 

My friends they are far and few

When they see me they run for miles

For love I stand in a queue

My children are archived in vials.

 

I know more than everyone I meet

My opinions too good to suppress

I expect you to fall at my feet

With praise my ego you'll caress

 

My life is a trail of woe

Everyone causes offence

Your attitude has hurt me so

Apologise in deference

 

I am a walking nerd

People mock me to my face

I am as smelly as a turd

To be flushed away as waste.

 

The Turd (Pt II)

I am so wonderful and pure

The masses fall flat at my feet

If you knew what I've had to endure

You'd be in awe of my great feat

For no one has suffered as I

Woe is the name of my coat

Each night I break down and cry

My enemies, they laugh and gloat

 

I am but a lump of shite

Inextricably trapped in a loo

There is no solution to my plight

My head has been knocked askew

My brains have been dropped in the bin

I don't know how to put up a fight

For me it is impossible to win

I cannot tell wrong from right.

 

 

- Confusion

 

You know better?
Wonderful.

     
 

To seek the cure, wade the sewer

The devils I ignore revel the more

 

 

Up At The Top

An ugly thought like a bloated slug slithers through my tiny grey cells

It's slimy trail leads deep below where the Unspeakable Monster dwells

Derisory sneers, petulant contempt, disdain, insult and abuse

A malevolent grin makes a snarl of a smile and my eyes are dark from misuse.

 

Searching, yearning, drooling desire, nakedness triggers excitement

This way, that way, hope and expectation, suppressed fear of indictment.

Ogle the girl who alights the bus with curls and radiant complexion

Lick her legs with lecherous looks and lear with a gleeful erection.

 

Mornings I awake to this horrid man contorted in mind and heart

"Humour" is to greet important people and emit a deadly fart

Behind the façade of honour and title I lurk like a mischievous child

Obeyed by others, I tame my staff yet I am the one who is wild.

 

By day, The Righteous, commands, governance, a highly respected position

Front line detonations, swathes of bankruptcy, silly buggers crammed into prison.

Criminal thoughts, criminal mind, Human Objects used or destroyed

The Unspeakable Monster takes control, wriggling bodies are enjoyed.

 

Private indulgence, 'innocent titillation', entertainment to relieve the boredom

'They'll never catch me,' I chuckle with glee, 'my hobby lies beyond the lawmen'

Tip the driver, well earned silence, step out in the quiet night lane

Discreet professionals bring to life the shadows that live in my brain.

 

 

You too?  

 

     
 

Where do ideas come from?
Glimpsed in the crowd or a whisper in the ear?

 

... in the name of "equality"

 

Rubber Womb

My womb is wrapped in rubber, my abortions are in the bin

Men are all bastards but we feminists are above sin;

Today I'll go down to the dole queue to pick myself a pimp -

Most of them are dead-heads with cocks that are always limp.

I'll get him to spend his giro on me before he gets his way -

And if he's no damn good I'll get the police to make him pay:

Charges of rape and sexual abuse will easily have him put away!

Lick my tits, suck my crotch, come in me again and again,

I want you to fuck me and fuck me from six p.m. till ten.

And if you should fall in love with me (you stupid arse-hole fool)

I'll smash your face, snatch your soul and tie a knot in your tool.

We are the best, all men are twits, useless and rotten little gits.

To fuck for fun is the way it's done for that's how to smash you into little bits.

Power, domination, control and command, men are too stupid to ever understand.

 

By the balls we squeeze and make them squirm,

With a heel in his face he becomes a worm.

Ah but us women are so wonderful and pure,

Our knowledge is profound we help and cure.

Wherever there is trouble we are out at the front:

Waving posters of protest - and flashing a cunt!

When the men come home from months of killing

We line the shores with bare breasts a-thrilling.

Sex is All, the Centre of our Universe -

Sadly for us we need a man to lift the Curse.

 

That's it, the end, the ghastly truth:

The Feminist mind is quite uncouth.

But what about me, am I so pure?

A twisted misogynist with no hope of a cure?

The idea of love so beautiful and sublime,

Why do I feel that passion is a crime?

To turn and reject that which I enjoy,

Why is it that lovers each other destroy?

Surely the "Fuck 'n' Chuck" Liberationists

Fulfil the dreams of masturbating sensualists?

Why condemn or apportion blame?

Is it not for both exactly the same?

Turmoil, confusion, agony and pain -

Are simple relationships always a strain?

Alone and miserable, drunk and annoyed,

Poverty-stricken, insane and unemployed;

Such is the fate of many a lover

Far too faithful to discover another.

"Obey-or-Else" the Feminist decrees,

The lonely man is brought to his knees.

Solitude, isolation, poverty and strife;

There must be more to this in life.

"A girl-friend!"  Acceptance, love and pleasure,

Ashes and trauma destroy the treasure.

Boring cliches, nothing is new,

Right from the beginning the bitches knew.

Fuckin' hell and accursed damnation

I wish I wasn't writin' such awful dictat'n.

Love and happiness isn't that what we want?

Or at least a little friendship .......

- go to sleep you boring old fart

Let others do the shouting and call it "Art"........

(Who me pissed?  Only a teeny weeny bit.)

 

 

 

OK point taken, how does one escape?

(Receptivity and personal effort?)

     
 
 

 

Beware The Saints

“All your life upon your knees other peoples' steps you wash”

“Shiny shoes, snooty noses, you busy around The Posh”

“You stand at a counter, serve every day, live on the minimum wage”

Menial lives, ordinary and dull, I have my Master The Sage

Mantras, postures, books and meditations, I fly without a crutch

My spirit enriched by lofty music, Heaven close enough to touch

“Those steps and brushes, you'd be surprised, they whisper tiny snippets”

“Customers share their private tales, more profound than gallery exhibits”

“Subtle sounds, like thoughts of angels, each moment my life is enriched”

“We have no need for complications, our lives are full, are you the, 'bewitched'?”

 

(Humble service: The highest course in personal development?)

     

 

 

 

 
 

 

The Prayer

I used to be conceited, now I am perfect, in the light of my own glory I bask

You are too stupid, beneath me you heckle, with ease I see through your mask

I snap my fingers and stamp my foot, petition the Heavens above

“Fulfil my demands, give me what I want, riches, fame and love”

“What you need is a lesson,” the Heavens agree, “something you'll never forget”

Stripped of status, humiliated in public, a heart that is torn by regret

“No, no, not that,” like a child in a tantrum I wail and weep in a heap

“Accept who you are, grasp 'now' as destiny, you sowed and today you reap”

Quietly I hide, in darkness I think, wrongness and fakery I study

The world cares not, I am but a dot, my task? Make ‘The Enemy’ my buddy?

 

(Learn to get along with difficult people - overcome anger and hatred?)

 

 

     

 

 

 

 
 

 

Why Worship?

Why should I worship some 'twit' they call "God"? My 'me' gives me all that I need

Cash in my pocket, a pint on the table and food to sate my greed

I'm young and strong with a well-paid job my hot-rod glows in the dark

What more do I want? A Bible and font? I'd rather watch girls in the park

 

I can't pay my rent, my cupboard is bare, in silence I kneel and pray

I hide alone, in the church and at home, afraid of what 'they' might say

Jehova, Allah, Ganesh and the other 'Help! Help!' I chant and plead

Relentless old age draws in like a cage, I beg them, "please fill my need".

 

(To Richard Dawkins?)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Darn Good People

Who are these people I call 'my friends'? They are neither famous nor rich

Vastly superior am I to them, when celebrity arrives then this lot I'll ditch

Charity shop and Cheap Street, dull attire, barely can they afford a tea

When I am 'up there' I'll sip with 'The Gods' in my ever lasting spending spree

We'll talk about money, the price of yachts and how to double a million on-line

Agents and managers, directors, producers, contracts that dictate (and confine)

Costly security for blitzed-out parties, competitive vanity and paranoid mistrust

Will I miss my chums who discussed the arcane? Darn good people, cheery and robust.

     

"What I suppress causes stress, what I resist will persist."

"The wrongness I face is the error I erase."

"First see the shocking truth, then there follows the healing truth."

(Vernon Linwood Howard)

     

     

     


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